Mike has poked you - a serious moment.
in this age of poking random acquaintances or elementary bullies and crushes, I once found myself drowning in memories.
my memories sucked.
I grew up a lad with obvious social problems. I don't blame anyone, back then, it wasn't cool to be diagnosed with anything, or to even test for that matter... but there has always been something different about me.
I have always been a social outcast... however, of the losers, I was quite the coolest... thats something, right?
In recent years, with Kaedens diagnosis of Aspergers syndrome, I am starting to understand me better. I see so many things in him that I was, it's sad knowing that he will face the lonlieness and awkwardness that i did and do.
But, there is hope, my son.... while i may not be the social titan i dream of being, I have it good, a beautiful girl on my arm, a wonderful family and a life that is generally fulfilling. I have learned to work on my eccentricities. I have learned to cope with how I am, and have learned to surround myself with people who are not the plasticy ones from my childhood. I have grown to understand what the normals are all about.
That being said... I am not there yet... nor do i think i will ever be... like Jane Goodall and her hairy friends, I much prefer to observe... normals fascinate me... watching an interaction between a plastic and a silverback alpha male is so scripted, and beautiful.
Back to FBing... I forgot how big of a loser some people were... like this one guy, I latched onto him because he let me borrow his atari games, and later NES games... when i was 14, he was awesome... we were both morons, and we both made each other laugh... when i found him, I relived those fun times... however, he has not grown up... you think i have mental issues, try interacting with a 33 year old who's humor and attitude has not evolved since grade 5... ugh!
Then there was the girls.. oh ladies... one on one, you would talk to me and we would actually have conversations... but when anyone else was around.. you'd push me away... ah the multifaceted pubesent female... how you intrigued me...
About a year ago, i took it upon myself to actually start choosing my friends, rather than add everyone i ever shared a class with, or were in the same club as, or whatever... I decided to be the cool guy and dump the people who were not an advancement in my social standing, or someone i wanted to be associated with. I got to be the cool guy that chose his circle.
If you are on my list, you obviously had some positive effect on my life.
I thank you
M.
*poke*
my memories sucked.
I grew up a lad with obvious social problems. I don't blame anyone, back then, it wasn't cool to be diagnosed with anything, or to even test for that matter... but there has always been something different about me.
I have always been a social outcast... however, of the losers, I was quite the coolest... thats something, right?
In recent years, with Kaedens diagnosis of Aspergers syndrome, I am starting to understand me better. I see so many things in him that I was, it's sad knowing that he will face the lonlieness and awkwardness that i did and do.
But, there is hope, my son.... while i may not be the social titan i dream of being, I have it good, a beautiful girl on my arm, a wonderful family and a life that is generally fulfilling. I have learned to work on my eccentricities. I have learned to cope with how I am, and have learned to surround myself with people who are not the plasticy ones from my childhood. I have grown to understand what the normals are all about.
That being said... I am not there yet... nor do i think i will ever be... like Jane Goodall and her hairy friends, I much prefer to observe... normals fascinate me... watching an interaction between a plastic and a silverback alpha male is so scripted, and beautiful.
Back to FBing... I forgot how big of a loser some people were... like this one guy, I latched onto him because he let me borrow his atari games, and later NES games... when i was 14, he was awesome... we were both morons, and we both made each other laugh... when i found him, I relived those fun times... however, he has not grown up... you think i have mental issues, try interacting with a 33 year old who's humor and attitude has not evolved since grade 5... ugh!
Then there was the girls.. oh ladies... one on one, you would talk to me and we would actually have conversations... but when anyone else was around.. you'd push me away... ah the multifaceted pubesent female... how you intrigued me...
About a year ago, i took it upon myself to actually start choosing my friends, rather than add everyone i ever shared a class with, or were in the same club as, or whatever... I decided to be the cool guy and dump the people who were not an advancement in my social standing, or someone i wanted to be associated with. I got to be the cool guy that chose his circle.
If you are on my list, you obviously had some positive effect on my life.
I thank you
M.
*poke*
posted by Lord Sethos at 10:03 PM
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